{"id":577,"date":"2020-10-12T00:19:59","date_gmt":"2020-10-11T21:19:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/?p=577"},"modified":"2020-10-12T00:19:59","modified_gmt":"2020-10-11T21:19:59","slug":"conditional-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/?p=577","title":{"rendered":"conditional love"},"content":{"rendered":"
it is challenging to be loved conditionally (especially with certain conditions)
\nI would love to be loved fully, for all my parts, even if those parts weren’t always very pretty.
\nI am figuring out how to set boundaries…
\nI’m figuring out what boundaries I need to set.
\nI did not see the place where I am today from way back in 2008, 2009, 2010…
\nor I would not have moved forward the way I did.<\/h6>\n
in this moment, I want to simply go away…
\nto leave and go to a room, a cabin, a place…
\nby myself, where only nature and my own thoughts can hear me and speak to me.
\nat this point I’m not sure that I trust anyone.
\nexcept for mostly myself (LOL, that’s funny)<\/h6>\n
this back looking, this pain focus that I’m doing…
\nI’m not sure it serves any good purpose for me.
\nPerhaps I can just stop.<\/h6>\n
hmmm…
\nperhaps.
\nand yet here I am thinking of “this situation”
\nand spinning around in nothing circles.<\/h6>\n
hmmm.<\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

it is challenging to be loved conditionally (especially with certain conditions) I would love to be loved fully, for all my parts, even if those parts weren’t always very pretty. I am figuring out how to set boundaries… I’m figuring out what boundaries I need to set. I did not see the place where I … Continue reading conditional love<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/577"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=577"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/577\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":578,"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/577\/revisions\/578"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=577"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=577"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonmarkelizondo.com\/blog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=577"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}